Arizona For A week.

I need to show you something your dad did. If this link works... if not... we are both in midlife connundrum...Dad and Ed flew to Austin and are driving home in this.
I learned of it on the flight out. What could he be thinking...
Yikes... he's giving me a blow by blow as he drives it here to zona.
Fun times...

Adriel is worrying me. I know she says we shouldn't worry. But I do. We are going to find a specialist who is 100% confident in this procedure of hers. None of this 80% BS.
In the meanwhile. As of now, I am seeing the mountains as I write this. I spent a week in zona with Jada. She is a great companion. We had a good time together. So glad she came with. Adriel was fighting her own battle with her mother trying to control her decisions about her heart procedure. I understand, but can't help it. Dad and I made all the decisions on her behalf for so many years and we looked at things from all angles with a view toward saving her life many times, or at least making it better. She wasn't privy to any of those discussions nor did she make those decisions. Now she's upset because we want involvement in choosing her physician for her heart procedures. We want the best and have been through these choices. I will never forget when she was transfered to the University of MN where they have m onkeys in training to be doctors working on sick people. Well, two of these apes were let loose on her while she was in intensive care. She was not three yet... don't remember her age exactly, all I remember was she was crying and crying and they didn't seem to even notice. They just kept poking her and practicing medicine on her as if she was some feelingless doll to experiment on. Heartless bastards. I can still see them, both young men, no sensitivity, just a scientific experiement. ON MY DAUGHTER. She was so upset she coudn't settle down and she could hardly cry out loud anymore she was so weak. I told them both to get away from her and don't ever dare come near her again. I didn't care what they needed from her to leave and don't even think about coming close to her bed.
I was livid. I still wonder if those two monkies were even residence. They probably were just janitors having a little fun. So, I won't apologize for being over protective or too careful about who practices medicine on my kids... no matter if they are 6, 36 of 60. I will f ight anyone who tries to hurt anyone of them or attempts to PRACTICE medicine without proper experience. excuse me while i get off my soapbox. thx.

I'm back. So, that was part of it. Also, Adriel and I had the battle royal our first day there when I went for a walk with her before Jada came. We were shouting... no, I was shouting at her so angry she made me cry. i never cry... that's what i told her and she said you always say that and I always see you cry. HMMM.
Well, anyway, it's over. I won't take that kind of disrespect from her again... and I was angry... well anyway, she and I were fighting and I was loud as usual and she turned around and said, MOM, there's a guy right behind us... No hopes that he didn't hear either... the wind was even blowing my loud voice toward him... how embarrassing... well that's the way it is sometimes. We quickly crossed the street and turned to walk in back of him... dang.. that was really embarrassing.

Anyway... so much for that. We kissed and made up and really had a nice time after the blow out. We are so much alike I kind of drive her crazy. Which, I don't understand because we were so close those early years. It was just Adriel and I. All the time. I even had the priviledge of praying with her to accept Jesus when she was four on the way to day care one morning. It was priceless. I will never forget it. She probably doesn't remember but I do. We did everything together. I felt like she was a part of my body. Part of it was protectiveness I am sure because I feared losing her every day. But, we were always together. She was home with Dad and I alone after all you other girls left for school. So it was Dad, Me and Adriel. The threesome.
We went everywhere together and it seemed so natural. Not like a kid with us, just my other body part.

So, I am protective still. I feel I have to fight for her life. I am up for it. So sue me